[ anything else she wants feels too muddy. but she knows that everything she's done, she's done to try to avoid jeopardizing that or risking harm coming to him — physical, emotional. he's too important to her. and now it feels like somehow he's slipping away from her.
and she'd thought ... well, now she feels stupid for it, a bit. the way he'd looked at her, she thought it was because of the same. there's something intense about her friendships — beyond what most people would regard as strictly platonic because she's never categorized. she'd never thought it was just because finn had always felt this way for her, wanted something different. she'd thought that was a development in duplicity. ]
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[ anything else she wants feels too muddy. but she knows that everything she's done, she's done to try to avoid jeopardizing that or risking harm coming to him — physical, emotional. he's too important to her. and now it feels like somehow he's slipping away from her.
and she'd thought ... well, now she feels stupid for it, a bit. the way he'd looked at her, she thought it was because of the same. there's something intense about her friendships — beyond what most people would regard as strictly platonic because she's never categorized. she'd never thought it was just because finn had always felt this way for her, wanted something different. she'd thought that was a development in duplicity. ]