I'm not asking you to support it, Finn. I'm asking you to believe that I need to I need to figure this out.
[ isn't that different? she wouldn't say she supports it either. if she did, she wouldn't have hidden it, wouldn't feel so conflicted. but it hardly feels like a choice when she is thus compelled by it, and when it's inescapable, and so deeply tied up in her history.
but even as she makes her plea — and it is a plea, because she can feel him slipping through her fingers and her defensive outburst was only fear of this exact situation — she already knows it's going to fall on deaf ears.
he can't be around her if she can't explain herself. and she can't let go of this. ]
[ he's fully cognizant of the fact that whatever relationship she and kylo ren have, his understanding is never going to be able to scratch the surface of that. he's felt that, he's always felt that to a deeper extent, even if maybe part of him didn't want to admit it. and it's something he feels uniquely attuned to just be the very nature of what he is able to sense, on a level different from most.
but he also remembers the one and only time his path had crossed with kylo ren's in this city. and he doesn't have to reach very far to guess about what would happen if their paths crossed again. ]
[ while she doesn't quite say 'he's your friend, not mine,' the sentiment seems to linger there. poe has been kind to her and she understands they have some history too. but it's so distinct from the reluctant cooperation that she's used to, while finn tugs between the two of them, that it honestly hadn't occurred to her.
that, and he'd barely spoken to her here. there's probably a connection. she had chosen not to think too hard on it. ]
[ which means it's up to him, although for once he's not only thinking about it from a contract standpoint. if anyone out of the group deserves to know that kylo ren is in duplicity, it's poe. finn's still not sure the extent of what had happened when he'd been captured; he just knows there's no love lost there. ]
[ she can't do another one of these. she really can't. she feels fragile, on the cusp of breaking, because her vision is tunneling from the surreality of knowing that there's this divide between her and finn. the lonely feeling left behind in it scares her. ]
I'll steer clear, if that's what you need. I'm so sorry.
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I'm asking you to believe that I need to
I need to figure this out.
[ isn't that different? she wouldn't say she supports it either. if she did, she wouldn't have hidden it, wouldn't feel so conflicted. but it hardly feels like a choice when she is thus compelled by it, and when it's inescapable, and so deeply tied up in her history.
but even as she makes her plea — and it is a plea, because she can feel him slipping through her fingers and her defensive outburst was only fear of this exact situation — she already knows it's going to fall on deaf ears.
he can't be around her if she can't explain herself. and she can't let go of this. ]
I wish I could make you understand.
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[ he's fully cognizant of the fact that whatever relationship she and kylo ren have, his understanding is never going to be able to scratch the surface of that. he's felt that, he's always felt that to a deeper extent, even if maybe part of him didn't want to admit it. and it's something he feels uniquely attuned to just be the very nature of what he is able to sense, on a level different from most.
but he also remembers the one and only time his path had crossed with kylo ren's in this city. and he doesn't have to reach very far to guess about what would happen if their paths crossed again. ]
Are you going to tell Poe?
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[ while she doesn't quite say 'he's your friend, not mine,' the sentiment seems to linger there. poe has been kind to her and she understands they have some history too. but it's so distinct from the reluctant cooperation that she's used to, while finn tugs between the two of them, that it honestly hadn't occurred to her.
that, and he'd barely spoken to her here. there's probably a connection. she had chosen not to think too hard on it. ]
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[ which means it's up to him, although for once he's not only thinking about it from a contract standpoint. if anyone out of the group deserves to know that kylo ren is in duplicity, it's poe. finn's still not sure the extent of what had happened when he'd been captured; he just knows there's no love lost there. ]
I'll do it.
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[ she can't do another one of these. she really can't. she feels fragile, on the cusp of breaking, because her vision is tunneling from the surreality of knowing that there's this divide between her and finn. the lonely feeling left behind in it scares her. ]
I'll steer clear, if that's what you need.
I'm so sorry.