[ it had been different, but no less important than opening herself up to finn. if anything, it had felt like a natural extension of their relationship — in the same way that being with finn had been reaffirming, warm and supportive and devotional, being with poe had been a push-and-shove, give-and-take. they'd worked each other up until there was only one possible way down.
but it wasn't her regret that felt like ice in her veins. ]
Look, if there's one thing I know about Poe, it's that you can rarely talk him into doing anything he doesn't want to.
[ and obviously he doesn't know the specifics of what had gone down between them, but he's already starting to fill in the blanks pretty well all on his own. ]
Even if he was affected by the same thing you were. Chances are that was only part of it.
[ they both know how stubborn he can be, and that stubbornness goes both ways, whether it's being made to do something or being told he can't. ]
Oh, so you
[ it's one thing to suspect it, but it's another thing entirely to have it confirmed. ] Maybe you should just... say it that way. I tried to warn him about as much as I could when he showed up, so he already had a sense that something like that could affect him.
[ every new piece of information seems to send her through a loop. if he'd known, then, that there was the possibility of something to manipulate them into doing something, wouldn't he have told her? he'd always been able to stand up to her, even when she was at the height of a stubborn fit — surely this would be no different.
now she can't help but feel more confused. ]
Okay. Okay, I'll ask him. And if he's angry he'll be in the Up and not here.
I'm not going to pretend to know what he's thinking, but I don't think he's angry.
[ he'd be able to tell on his end if something was up, wouldn't he? and they've already had the conversation about not keeping things from each other, especially not here when so much of this is unfamiliar and stressful enough to get through. they don't need to be adding to it if they can help it. ]
Even if it was an aphro, chances are
The chances are he already wanted to. Even just a little bit.
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You don't regret it, do you?
[ finn is mostly just like internally ????? ]
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[ it had been different, but no less important than opening herself up to finn. if anything, it had felt like a natural extension of their relationship — in the same way that being with finn had been reaffirming, warm and supportive and devotional, being with poe had been a push-and-shove, give-and-take. they'd worked each other up until there was only one possible way down.
but it wasn't her regret that felt like ice in her veins. ]
But I couldn't take it if he did.
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[ and obviously he doesn't know the specifics of what had gone down between them, but he's already starting to fill in the blanks pretty well all on his own. ]
Even if he was affected by the same thing you were. Chances are that was only part of it.
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[ it does make her feel one percent better to tease him behind his back. ]
I know I need to talk to him. I just don't know what to say. "Did an aphrodisiac make you want to have sex with me" is a little ridiculous.
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[ they both know how stubborn he can be, and that stubbornness goes both ways, whether it's being made to do something or being told he can't. ]
Oh, so you
[ it's one thing to suspect it, but it's another thing entirely to have it confirmed. ] Maybe you should just... say it that way. I tried to warn him about as much as I could when he showed up, so he already had a sense that something like that could affect him.
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now she can't help but feel more confused. ]
Okay. Okay, I'll ask him.
And if he's angry he'll be in the Up and not here.
[ and she can ... deal with it. ]
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[ he'd be able to tell on his end if something was up, wouldn't he? and they've already had the conversation about not keeping things from each other, especially not here when so much of this is unfamiliar and stressful enough to get through. they don't need to be adding to it if they can help it. ]
Even if it was an aphro, chances are
The chances are he already wanted to. Even just a little bit.
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[ but she still feels a little nauseous all the same. force have mercy on her. ]
Still makes me want to jump off a building rather than have to have this conversation, though.